December 17, 2010 § Leave a comment
November 12, 2010 § Leave a comment
“putting on a brave face so you won’t see the pain, laughing so you won’t see the tears, and smiling so you won’t see the heart ache”
November 9, 2010 § Leave a comment
Let’s pull away from clothing and music. I want to talk about relationship today. So I have recently became unattached. I am 24 and should be at least thinking about a serious relationship and ‘marriage’. WOW. My heart gets heavy whenever I think marriage because I do not think I am ready for it; however, times flies and I will sooooooon (emphasized on the ‘soon’) need to get married someday. So I started thinking, should I find a man who is fit for me? or should I follow my feelings and find a man I love? Because they can be two different men. I can find a guy I am crazily in love with, and live on bread. Or I can find a guy who has a good job with a good sense of responsibility and marry him; I might not LOVE him~ but I will like him. What would be a better choice? This is one of the dilemmas I am having right now… Which path should I take? I mean, who can guarantee that the man I love turns out to be the guy with the good job and a good sense of responsibility. There are guys OUT there… that are like this, but I am not meeting them or I am not falling in love with them.
But most of you will probably just tell me to wait. Right? You will all say that I will know when ‘the one’ comes. Sigh~ Bullshit me no more, he came and left. Or can I have many ‘the one’? It depends right?
November 6, 2010 § Leave a comment
It’s so gloomy out, I am losing apetite for everything. I would love it if it rains, but it’s not. It’s just cloudy and gloomy: Just like how I am feeling inside. Life is too bittersweet at the moment. This love hate relationship I am having with people is really driving me crazy. My intention here is to enjoy every minute I make; however, it seems like the people, the society are trying to drag me out of this talk. What do they want? Why can’t society just let me be? Why do I always have to be so caught up with speed and improvement? and Why if I don’t, I will be eliminated? I enjoy being an artist and seeing artists being themselves. They have no intention to follow the world; they only listen to their heart and talent. I wonder, sometimes, if I am an artists myself: for having such bizarre, crazy thoughts. Don’t worry, I didn’t put up this song because I wanna die. Just like the tune…
Gloomy Sunday – Bjork